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Thursday, October 30
fnord Kitty typed random crap at 17:42 Tuesday, October 28 
That's all I have to say.fnord Kitty typed random crap at 18:55 Monday, October 27 Tomorrow is maths, and after tomorrow, I'll never have to do maths ever again. And I'm going to burn the maths exam paper, page by page in my brother's kettle barbeque. And I'm going to giggle gleefully. And then I'm going to study for modern. yay. I'm so pining for conversation right now. But almost no-one is online, so I'll make a random list or two. I'm pining for: -conversation, with anyone -human social interaction, outside of my family -money of my own -a conversation with jenny, because it's been WAAAYY too long -a legitimate excuse to see Erin, because her bitch-nazi parents are going to keep her under lock and key until after the exams -the hsc to be OVER. It's getting old already. -my P's. I need to organise more driving lessons.. I'm amused by: -The way Mike and Luke alternate between sucking up to eachother and pissing eachother off -Having a certain person's email -The fact that I'll have extreeeeme power at schoolies. *giggles* power is so much fun! I'm looking forward to: -Schoolies -Not having to write stupid essays anymore -Not having to do pointless maths things -The formal -Summer and thus copious amounts of time up the beach -Getting some money of my own -Farewelling certain ick people from my life forever. Yay! To Do list -Go down to Canberra, which reportedly is less of a hole once you're 18 -Go up to the beach to prepare the house for schoolies -Buy large quantities of booze -Finish reading "Return of the King" -Re-read "The Secret Garden" -Read "The Princess Bride" -Watch all the crappy teen movies I've not yet seen -Sit in the shade on my primary school oval and make a clover chain -Feel mud squelch between my toes -Play on a swing set -Build a website from scratch I had a dream last night that Luke replaced his current template with a really bugly one. I was horrified. What a strange dream. Anyway, I think I'm done now. Have I wasted enough webspace? I think so.fnord Kitty typed random crap at 21:17 Friday, October 24 I had a fantastic night tonight. I went to Mike's houseand played video games with him, Luke and Evan, and then watched them play pool. (I suck at pool) There was sexual innuendo, not as much as last time, and deli chips. Twas good. Mike and I played this hideously sexist beach volleyball game which we (eventually) kicked ass at. It only took us five goes. :D So I was on a high from laughing heaps and having fun, then in the car on the way home, that this sort of evening is exactly what I'm going to miss next year. Just wasting time, being stupid, laughing at anything and everything especially your own silliness. I'm sure it'll happen next year, but it just won't be the same somehow. Because I've seen it happen before and... yeah. It sucks. I worry about making friends next year. Because well, I've never been very good at it. And whatever freinds I make next year will have such high standards to live up to. The friends I have now rock so much, and..... I'm getting sentimental so I'm going to shut up now. fnord Kitty typed random crap at 23:52 Thursday, October 23 Things to say, but no inclination to say them. Yeah I know, I'm lazy. Have a bitch, see if i care. I'm tired. fnord Kitty typed random crap at 21:55 Tuesday, October 21 Why Kitty bitches. It's really quite simple. Bitching is generally triggered by one of three things 1. Offence against someone I care about 2. Offence against me 3. Boredom I'll go backwards, because, well, I feel like it. 3. Anyone who knows me, knows I'm often bored. And occasionally, I'll resort to bitching to cure my boredom. This is when I bitch about people and things which just piss me off, for little or no apparent reason. This is, I suppose, light hearted bitching, venting etc. Mostly harmless. 2. If someone does something against me, of course I'm going to have a bitch. Anyone would. Like, dah. 1. First/last, and the most important and valid reason to bitch. If someone hurts anyone I care about, I get pissed off. If I bitch about someone regularly, it's pretty much a sure bet that they've hurt someone I care about, or at least done something nasty to them. Let's take a completely hypothetical situation. Let's say there's this girl, who I've known for several years. We're relatively good friends, and she's really close to my best friend. She's pretty nice, but she starts to change. She starts doing all the things she used to condemn. And then one day she ditches her best friend for some guy she's just met. Oddly enough, her friend is devestated, the friendship, in effect, is over. She really hurt my best friend. Now, for some strange reason, let's say i attempt to maintain the friendship between me and this girl. But then she decides to turn on me as well, treating me like crap and being in general, a bitch. In this situation, do you think I would be justified in bitching about this girl? Now, add to the situation the fact that this girl, who has already hurt my best friend, is dating someone else who I care about. She hardly has a good track record, so of course, I'm petrified she's goign to rip his heart out and step on it. Am I justified in bitching about her yet? Of course I would be. Anyone who says otherwise obviously has little empathy for their friends. Kitty typed random crap at 19:40 Sunday, October 19 everyone else was doing it.
Kitty typed random crap at 21:00 *giggles* hello. I'm in a good mood. "Why?" you ask. I've gone insane. :D Isn't that fantastic? I wish I had a swimming pool. It's been so hot today. I'm pining so badly for the beach. RANDOM PICTURE TIME!!! legolas kitty! 
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collage  Kitty typed random crap at 15:49 Thursday, October 16 Things that disturb me. -I have not studied. Not really anyway. Token studying, if that. -I am thus FUCKED. No really, I am. Honestly. -I don't even care. I KNOW I should study. I know I should work. BUT: -I have ABSOLUTELY NO INCLINATION to study. -I've been more lazy lately than I have in my entire life. And that's saying something. I'm too lazy to even get myself food. And that's REALLY saying something. I'm so strange lately. I miss my friends and I'm accutely aware that it's only going to get worse. I'm only going to move further and further away from my sphere of comfort. And maybe I'll make a new one. But it's so hard to reconcile myself to the fact that things can never be the same again. I sound like a fucking broken record. *sighs* I hate pondering the nature of existence. I really do. I refuse to believe that the whole point of living is trying to decide whether you actually are living. That didn't make any sense. I don't make any sense. It's late, and I'm lonely, and I've nothing to say or do... Right now, I want something more. Kitty typed random crap at 23:20 Tuesday, October 14  You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator. "And The Goddess planted the acorn of life. She cried a single tear and shed a single drop of blood upon the earth where she buried it. From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into the world." Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek), Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian). The Goddess is associated with the concept of creation, the number 1, and the element of earth. Her sign is the dawn sun. As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic individual and people are drawn to you. Although sometimes you may seem emotionally distant, you are deeply in tune with other people's feelings and have tremendous empathy. Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your own self. Goddesses are the best friends to have because they're always willing to help. Which Mythological Form Are You? brought to you by Quizilla lol. What a load of bull. Oh well. Kitty typed random crap at 23:47 Everyone leaves just as I need to talk. But that's ok, I don't know what to say anyway. "Hi, my name's Caroline, and I'm lost. Can you help me find.... something..." I remember getting lost in Big W when I was really young. The most potent emotion I felt at the time was annoyance at the women who described me over the store's PA, because she mispronounced my name. It's really the thing that sticks with me most about the whole incident. I should've been terrified, four years old, standing around with a bunch of strangers, wondering if I'd ever see my mother again. But no, rambunctious child that I was, I was more pissed off that this stupid Big W lady was saying my name was Carolyn. *shrugs* I was an odd child. Guess I still am. Kitty typed random crap at 20:03 I wonder that thou, being, as thou sayest thou art, Much Ado About Nothing ACT I, SCENE III. Kitty typed random crap at 18:33 Kitty typed random crap at 02:16 Like, blah. I'm so bored. i should be sleeping right now, but I slept all day, so sleep has run away, poking its pointy tongue out at me. Spiteful sleep. I'm feeling so deliciously mean right now. I don't get people who are always nice, or at least pretend to be. It smacks of insincerity. It must be unhealthy too. All that pent up bitching, festering inside of a person. Being a bitch is fun. I don't care what anyone says. If I don't like someone, why should I pretend to feel otherwise? I f they deserve my contempt, they shall get no less than they deserve. Kitty typed random crap at 01:25 Sunday, October 12 cranky cranky cranky. Tonight fucking sucks. Hear that? TONIGHT SUCKS. *sticks finger up at entire evening* Too annoyed to post. Kitty typed random crap at 22:45 Saturday, October 11 the birthday post Yesterday was my birthday. I'm now officially 18, as opposed to being 17 and merely saying I'm 18. V.cool. It seems somewhat compulsory to detail the event sof my day. So here goes. Midnight First - still awake, and online, talking to Mike. Hinted very loudly until I recieved my first happy birthday. Mike sucks at getting hints. Soon after the first happy birthday I recieved the second, via sms, from my sister Emma. I then went to bed. Sleep rocks. Ten minutes after the tenth hour, on the tenth day of the tenth month - Woken by my mother, who was actually unaware of the time. She then suggested McDonalds, to which I responded gleefully. Some twenty minutes later, I recieved my usual, (sausage and egg McMuffin, small coke and hash brown) while lazing in my bed. Yay! The Eleventh Hour - went to the shops across the road, enrolled to vote, and bought $10 worth of scratchies. I didn't win anything, but that's ok. Twas still cool. I then went home and went back to bed. Yay sleep! Three-ish - Long leisurely lunch, then up to the shops to buy a top for the evening. Got awesome cherry red phone key-pad too. Six-ish - Went to the station to meet Jenny. Stacked walking back to my sister's house. Blood and stuff. Could've been worse though. Jenny did my hair very awesomely, and then we went to the restaurant. Fashionably Late - Fifteen minutes or thereabouts. Big Deal. So what if nearly everyone else was already there? Anyway, we went in, I got multiple pressies, and we ordered. I got a Grasshopper (creme de menthe, creme de cacao and cream, and a curious green colour). We ate, etcetera. Post-Food - Karaoke. Really, the point of the whole exercise. Jared "sang", of course. It wouldn't be any fun if he didn't. I sang. Twice. Bribery and 4 drinks had something to do with it, I think. Twas cool. The minute punkers were v. cool too. Hurrah for little dudes air-guitaring! Midnight Second - Dad drove Jenny home, so at midnight I was somewhere between home and Campbelltown. Twas an awesome day. Present List - Bohemian Glass Decanter, Jen - Lighter Set, Steve - Rose Gold and Diamond Ring, Parents - Marcasite Earrings, Jenny - Assorted unrepeatable, things from my friends. Presumably, more to come, from family and the like. Kitty typed random crap at 22:31 Friday, October 10  Kitty typed random crap at 01:06 Wednesday, October 8 I had planned to write a relatively long post about last night, and today, but I'm far too tired. So I'll gove you a lazy arse list. Things of note. Yesterday - Jenny's house. - Pizza. Stupid Pizza hut people screwed up our order. We were going to stuff the dodgy pizza into their mailbox, only to discover they don't have one. :( - Queers. Queer Eye, AND Queer as Folk. Mostly to freak Bec out though! - Legally Blonde. Seen it before, still cool. - Much talking, minimal sleep Today - Got up Hideously early - Slept on the train into the city - McCaffiene! Weird asian girl who was a dead ringer for Mandy, despite the fact that Mandy isn't Asian. - Windowshopping. Drooling over clothing, shrieking over said clothing price tags. - Lack of money = lack of purchases - TEA! - KFC! Which I'm also having tomorrow. Soooo bad for me. *shrugs* I care not. - EXCRUCIATINGLY long walk to the gallery. (okay, so it wasn't THAT long, but every step sucks when you have a 10cm long cut on the sole of your foot) - Gallery. So cool. Hurrah for cloaking too. - Home. Sleep. I need more of it. In closing:  Kitty typed random crap at 01:21 Sunday, October 5 Video games + strange male friends = lots of sexual innuendo. also= lots of fun. Kitty typed random crap at 23:07 *yawns* Went to the movies this evening. Jared, Mike, Erin and I saw Tomb Raider, The Cradle of Life. It was abominable. The plot was so thoroughly improbable, as were some of the effects. And I still don't get the baboons. But, despite all of that, or maybe BECAUSE of that, it was SO much fun. I had an awesome time. Unfortunately it meant that I missed Jenny online. :( Sorry. *hides from Jenny's inevitable wrath* I'm trying to think of stuff to blog about. I don't want to blog about the hsc. I don't even want to think about the hsc. I don't want to blog about the future, because it too, doesn't bear thinking about. I don't want to blog about my psuedo-not-crush. It makes me too..... shitty. I don't want to blog about my birthday, I've done that so much lately. I don't want to blog about my friends, because I'll only be reminded of how different things will be next year. I don't want to blog about me, because I'm boring. I don't want to blog about current events, because they're boring too. I don't particularly want to blog at all tonight. So why am I still here, staring at a computer screen, forcing my fingers to type? I guess I'm just too fucking bored and lazy to do anything else. Hmm. In other news, I'm not nearly as pissed of at Deon anymore. 'Sall cool. Apparently Skanky's presence at the valedictory dinner wasn't his fault, and he wasn't deliberately being a prick about my birthday dinner. So yeah, it's all good. That is all. Kitty typed random crap at 00:32 Saturday, October 4 Seven days until my birthday. Seven days until I've lived eighteen complete years. Seven days until I can vote in state and federal elections. Seven days until I can buy alcohol. Seven days until I can gamble. Seven days until my birthday. Seven days until I have chinese food with my friends. Seven days until Jared amuses us all with his karaoke skills. Seven days until I walk out of the restaurant because, inevitably, someone sings "Sweet Caroline". Seven days until I hide my disappointment at the pointed absence of several of my "friends". Seven days until my birthday. Seven days until I recieve a beautiful rose gold diamond ring. Seven days until I recieve surprise gifts that have been held over my head for months already. Seven days until I recieve not-surprise gifts, that I've been pining for for as long as I've known what they were. Seven days. Kitty typed random crap at 00:04 Wednesday, October 1 Liking someone is so emotionally taxing. Pfft. Stupid freaking pseudo-not-crushes. Kitty's Recipe for Home-Cooked Unrequited Love Ingredients: 1 emotionally insecure individual 1 beautiful (or at the very least, attractive) individual 1 Tsp fascination 1 Tsp lust 1 cup adoration 3 tsp admiration 1 cup shyness 2-5 tsps guilt 1-3 cups remorse 7 cups self-doubt ½ tsp delusional hope Method: Mix in food processor until smooth. Pour into cake tin and bake for 45 mins, or until golden brown. I don't know why I wrote that, I guess I'm just v. bored. I guess that's only to be expected being that it's almost two in the morning and I've no internet. *pines for internet* At least I can use dad's laptop. *pets pretty dell inspiron* It's kind of pathetic the way I've become so reliant on technology for daily existance. Oh well. I'll just blame society. Stupid society. *chastises* I went down onto the beach this afternoon. It was too cold to swim, which was a bitch, but Jen and I built a kick-arse sand castle. Well, actually, the castle itself kinda sucked. But the moat and the little river leading to the lake were awesome. Umm, yeah. Slow news day. Kitty typed random crap at 06:53 |
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